Get Up and Move On

To date this is my favorite song I have written. It's called Get Up and Move On. This is another story about the girl from Jump. So basically we are together. We act as if we are dating amd the whole nine yards. But for some reason she doesn't wanna make it official. She tells me she likes me flirts with me constantly and we both seem happy about it. I have a friend of mins who I tell everything, let's call her Ally. I tell Ally what's going on with me and the girl, She tells me she likes me etc. Ally goes and tells Brie what's going on and Brie gets really upset at the girl. I've decided to give the girl a name haha so I'm gonna call her Maddie. (maddie is girl whom I love). So Brie gets mad at maddie and I don't understand why. A couple months later I find out why. I come to think that maybe maddie and Brie are together, like in a relationship. I call maddie out on it and she tells me they have been a couple for 5 months. Hmm she's been telling me she likes me for 5 months....AH HA! she couldn't go out with me because she had a girl friend. Now I have nothing wrong with lesbians or bi-sexuals but when it comes down to it she's been leading me on for months. I got really pissed but I couldn't very well be uber pissed at maddie, I love her! Now I see why Brie was so pissed when she found out maddie liked me. She was two timing Brie! And neither brie nor I know what she was saying to one another so we became natural enemies. After I found out maddie is going out with Brie I decided to talk to her. I find out that maddie has been trying to lie to us both so she could have the best of both worlds. She made me hate Brie and Brie hate me in the hope that we would never talk about this and she would never get caught. At this point Brie and I are pissed.

A lot of drama happens and Maddie doesn't know what the hell to do. She continues to go back and forth between me and Brie which is hurting all parties involved. So I decide to take matters into my own hand. And what a mistake that was. I text Maddie telling her she's a bitch and I f**king hate her and she should never talk to me again. My intention was to have her hate me but that blew up in my face. She didn't hate me she was just pissed I would say such a thing. She said I can never not like you but I wish you didn't say that stuff. Man I have never cried so much in my life. I felt so bad for saying that stuff I cried myself to sleep. I just wanted her to be happy and I thought that if she hated me she could be happy with just Brie. I know that was a f**led up thing to do but I couldn't think. Of anything else l.
A while goes on and I have decided I'm done with Maddie. For 5 months I have been led on and I'm not top happy about that. i call Maddie I'm like "okay so you've lost me but you still have Brie. Don't lose her cause she's all you got now. Obviously being with me is not what you want so Stay with her. Just be happy." the next day I log onto AIM to see she had imed me about 20 times. The summary of those ims, I'm done with Brie and I know I've lied to you but I want you and only you. Me being an idiot take her back. She says Brie has controled her life for 5 months and now she's free. She also says she is going to tell her what's going on after she comes back from taking the SATs. I say to myself okay at the end of the day I'm gonna tell Brie what's going on because she deserves to know. That gives Maddie a soild 7 hours to tell her so things should b okay. 1 A.M. Rolls around and I tell Brie what's going on. She thnaks me for telling her and also says maddie is denying asking me out at that very second. But wait a second Maddie told me she was going to bed at 11? She lied to me again? And so Maddie freaks out at me and yells at me and breaks up with me. The next morning I wake up to ims saying and I quote "you never cared for me, the only reason you told Brie was to break us apart so you could have me for myself". Now I know you don't know me and this could all be bullshit but let me tell you something I care for Maddie more than I care about breathing. And for her to tell me I never cared man it was like a stake through the heart. That day she is really pissed while she is texting me and then all of a sudden she goes sorry I was in a bad state of mind take me back? Well trick me once shame on you trick me twice shame on me. I say no I can't do that. She then says well thanks now is when I find out who my true friends are and I'm glad to know you aren't one. Stake through the heart number two. So I say enough this has got to stop.

I tell her we need to meet face to face and stop texting about this. We go yo barnes n noble and we have a two hour discussion. Here's what comes out of it. Apperently Brie and Maddie are gonna break for a month. And Maddie and I aren't gonna date either during that time. She says she can't date anyone right now because she doesn't know what she wants. I'm like cool I'm good with that and we both leave happy.

A week goes by and ally comes and tells me Maddie and Brie are still together XD. More lies. I call Maddie out on it and she gets mad at me. I ask Brie about it and of course Maddie had set up some insurance. Maddie told Brie not to talk about their relationship to me. Maddie like always finds a way to blame me saying the situation changed and it's none of my buisness. Well at this point it kind of is.

I give up. I think that the only reason Maddie keeps me around is so she can say to herself she isn't a lesbian. O did I tell you she says she doesn't like girls? Yeah she likes to say to herself she is "normal" and she isn't gay or bi. Well that was the last straw. I have given up on her which is killing me on the inside.

I just wanted to explain this one part of the song. 11:11 is a time where if you make a wish and it's supposed to come true. Well during the 5 months when I was unaware of Brie I styaed up till 11:11 and wished I could make Maddie happy. Well I guess it doesn't really work.

Here are the lyrics to Get Up amd Move On

I fall down cause of you
This is never anything I wanted to do
This has gone on far to long
It's time to get up and move on. 

I know im better off
To lose these battles we have fought 
No more fighting about the truth
Hate to tell you but you've been caught. 

I fall to the floor
You've opened a door
Like a shadow in the sun
You've dissapeared and now I'm done

You say You love me
I am tired of this hopeless fight 
The feelings I cannot hide
You will always be all I think of at night

Your the wish I make at 11:11 
Your very smile is a glimpse of heaven
You're the beat of my heart
But I can't get that beat to start
Just get up and move on 

I die a little cause of you 
Nothing to move me nothing new
Can you not tell me you feel this too?
It's time I woke up and got a clue.
  
It's time to get up and move on. 
I fall down cause of you
This is never anything I wanted to do
This has gone on far to long

I can take the sun going dark
There are days I can't breathe
None of this is because of you
I got to get up, move on and leave. 


So now I'll lie in my bed
I am tired of this hopeless fight 
Thoughts of you inside my head
You will always be all I think of at night 

Your the wish I make at 11:11 
Your very smile is a glimpse of heaven
You're the beat of my heart
But I can't get that beat to start
Just get up and move on