Need a Name

Need a Name was the first song I ever wrote that meant anything. It's about a girl I was dating who believed I was going to break up with her to participate in a threesome. Yeah ever guys dream right? It's my dream too I won't lie but I didn't want to mess things up with my girlfriend so I said no. I really liked this girl, we had dated for about 4 months gone into the city together where I was her first kiss and our relationship was really romantic. She knew that I really wasn't one that liked the hooking up and the sex. I'd much rather talk and get to know a person. In fact I find the whole physical aspect of a relationship disgusting. My mouth is for eating not to touch another mouth, my tounge is for tasting, not for wrestling with another tounge, and my Penis is for peeing, not meant to be sucked on. My point is she knew I wouldn't break up with her for sex but she believed the rumor that I was gonna break up with her for a threesome. Let me tell you it hurt a lot. Prior to our dating we were like best friends and I thought she knew who I was but she didn't know me at all XD. After she broke up with me over a rumor she stopped talking to me all together it hurt sooooo much. So I wrote Need a Name. The name story is kind of interesting. I needed a name for the song so I asked my friend through am email what I should name it. The subject of the email was need a name and he was like why don't you use that. I figured what the hell and I did just that.

So here are the lyrics of Need A Name

Staring at the past, hoping for a future
The present is cold and silent
The breath leaves my body tonight

I didn't want to go but I was asked to stay
Escaping words is impossible
The only thing I had was trust
But trust did not want me
I knew that this day would come but not like this, without anything

To feel myself fade away, to hear you walk away
giving anything and everything to you, but it has never been enough
To feel myself fade away, to hear you walk away away
And I see the false words, spread the gap I worked so hard to close

Staring at the past hoping for a future
The present is cold and silent
The breath leaves my body tonight

When time ends what happened here will matter none
We will be replaced but why not leave together
Who know what lies beyond the words and where they will lead us
But how could you have trusted them?

To feel myself fade away, to hear you walk away
giving anything and everything to you, but it has never been enough
To feel myself fade away, to hear you walk away
And I see the false words, spread the gap I worked so hard to close

Staring at the past, hoping for a future
The present is cold and silent
Your belief in me has faded.

Disappointment and sorrow embedded in my heart
Regret is now what makes me
Who I am and what I will always be
Between us there’s only broken silence
I lost a friend to words tonight

Regretting the past, looking towards the future
The present is now the past
The breath left my body today

The words have silenced me
I'm sorry they blinded you [x2]

Here I'll stay within the lies
slipping into darkness never to return
there are no words to be said, I have no breath to take

To feel myself fade away, to hear you walk away
giving anything and everything to you, but it has never been enough
To feel myself fade away, to hear you walk away
and the false words finally pulled us apart